Those who watched AppleTV+’s documentary, Billie Eilish: The World’s A Little Blurry, may have been surprised to learn about Billie’s Eilish‘s boyfriend, Brandon “Q” Adams, who she kept a secret from the world for more than a year.
In The World’s A Little Blurry, which premiered on Friday, February 26, Eilish revealed that she dated a singer named Q (his real name is Brandon Adams) in 2019. The couple is seen holding hands and ice skating in the documentary, and Eilish often ends their phone conversations with an “I love you.” However, the relationship didn’t last. Eilish reveals that he and Q broke up because they didn’t want the same things in life.
“I didn’t want the same things he wanted and I don’t think that’s fair for him,” she says. “I don’t think you should be in a relationship super excited about things that the other person couldn’t care less about. I don’t think that’s fair to you. I don’t think that’s fair to him. There was just a lack of effort. I was literally like, ‘Dude, you don’t have enough love to love yourself so you can’t love me, dude. And you don’t…You think you do.’”
Though the two split in 2019, Eilish, who admitted that she “just wasn’t happy” in her relationship, confessed in the documentary that she’s still not over her ex. “I do love him though, which made it harder,” she says. “I’m not over him, I didn’t find someone else. I didn’t stop having love for him. I just spent time away from him for a little bit and I was like, ‘Wow I’m missing so much because I’m worried about you all the time and I don’t want what you want and you don’t want what I want.’ I don’t want to fix him. I can’t fix him. I tried.”
After the documentary, fans slammed Q for the way he treated Eilish, which led her to defend him in an Instagram Story on March 2. “Remember to be nice to people no matter what! I love you guys thank you for protecting me but be nice!!,” she wrote.
Eilish’s Instagram Story came after Q defended himself on his own account. “People fail to realize I’ve been dealing with my brother’s death,” he wrote. “Especially around that time when it was fresh. Sometimes you have to be alone to cope. Sometimes people disagree and don’t want the same things as one another.”
He continued, “It’s on you to understand there’s several points of view to a situation. Anyone who knows me knows where my heart is. I stay with a smile on my face even when I’m hurting. We push through the pain. [No love is ever lost.] But I refuse to be bashed…Theres always 2 sides to a situation.”
So what else is there to know about Q? Well, like Eilish, Q is also from Los Angeles. He’s also five-and-a-half years older than her. (Q was born in 1996, while Eilish was born in 2001.) Q also performs under the stage name, 7:AMP, and even featured Eilish on the cover of his 2019 album, Bleaupro. Q, who has since deleted his Instagram, used to have a large following. Before he removed himself from social media, Q would often praise Kanye West in his posts.
Eilish hasn’t talked a lot about Q, but in a 2020 interview with Vogue, the magazine revealed that one of the causes of the “Bad Guy” singer’s depression was a “romantic relationship with someone who treated her poorly.” Vogue didn’t specify who Eilish’s ex was, but the Grammy winner did tell the magazine how she healed after her pain.
“When people ask me what I’d say to somebody looking for advice on mental health, the only thing I can say is patience. I had patience with myself. I didn’t take that last step. I waited. Things fade,” she said.
In an interview with GQ UK in 2020, Eilish also opened up about why she’s fine staying single at the moment. “It is so weird, but I don’t see it for myself,” she said.“I know I will find someone eventually, but at the moment I can’t visualize it. I feel like I am a totally different person when I am with someone else.”
She continued, “People just don’t do it for me. It’s been months and I am not attracted to people any more. I don’t know what’s going on… It’s actually kind of dope.”